Twenty-Ten

Listening to: "Across The Universe" (Film)

Mood: Tired

Every year people swear to abide by their new set of new year's resolution. People creating a list of things they want to begin or change, the new goals for the year that are somewhat destined to fail. At least, that's the experience I've had with my own resolutions. As the year rolls to a close, nothing seems to have been achieved to the extent I had hoped. This is year is no different, except I didn't get to stay up till 2 in the morning eating junk and writing out the list with my best friend.

Thus far the last few years my resolutions have consisted of "staying fit" and "doing well at school". These, however, have proven futile over the years. So this year, the final year of the first decade in the new millennium I decided instead of the typical, "doing well at school" which should be a given especially now after all the hard work I put into getting into university.

So what do I plan to do for the next 11 months?

• be more confident in myself

Sure, it's only one thing; baby steps. If I only set myself one or two goals I'm more likely to achieve them than if I had a long list of things. However, I did want to begin ballet, which I have successfully done, now all I have to do is continue and not quit.

I guess I also want to be a little less shy when I'm around new people. I've always been the type of person who sits and observes everything first, then on the second or so meeting I'll be able to talk a little more freely. This year, more than ever, I'll really have to be more confident and less shy as I'll be throw in an environment where everything will be different at school.

There are definitely other things I want to do, such as, not being so secretive and being more open to voice my opinions and feelings. I've always been the type to bottle everything up, even when I talk to my better half, which is frustrating on her part.

This year I don't want all my resolutions merely to be an exterior, superficial thing. I want to change myself, make myself better permanently.

So for the next 11 months I will aim to achieve:

• being more confident
• being more vocal
• being less shy

xx