Ambitions

Listening to: "Pruit Igoe & Prophecies" - The Philip Glass Ensemble

Mood: Exhausted

As the high school chapter of my life came to a close, I was told life truly began. For me that meant new ambitions had to be fulfilled. I have a long list of things I want to start again or begin as of 2010 as I now have all this free time on my hands, because school is no longer a hindering factor and no longer a reason to prevent me from completing what I want. However, as I reviewed my list of ambitions I had a reality check, it's almost impossible to do everything on that list. I guess you're wondering what's on this ridiculous list of mine, well this is what I have thus far:

• go to Uni
  
• go to work, and earn some monies
  
• begin ballet again
• go to French Patisserie classes
• start cooking
• continue with my clothing projects
• get the next piano diploma; A-Mus
• begin to learn the guitar again

I think there might be more that I can't think of at the moment, but that's the list thus far. Not only will I struggle to fit this all into my timetable, but I will definitely struggle financially to pay for all the tuition and side-projects I have going.

On top of all this I have to stay healthy, and keep in touch with outside world. Not to mention now that I'm in a relationship, I must make time to see my beautiful girl. Though I'd be more than happy to drop something to see her, like she has done for me. Though these things are a given, looking at that long list, I wonder where everything would fit? I'm sure many of you have noticed that in one week we have 7 days, and in each of those 7 days we have only a mere 24hrs. However, if you're like me and need at least 6-8+ hrs sleep then you would have a lot less than 24hrs.

I guess at the moment I've realised how unrealistic these ambitions are and that I quite honestly do not have enough hours, or days to do everything. I think it's time for me to reconsider what's on my list and what the most to accomplish before the end of 2010. Though many of these are beginnings of something that will last beyond 2010, and some will be useful for a lifetime. They say the sky's your limit, but have limits come in many different forms.

xx